I’m in Europe. I came here after two weeks in India and I’m not going back to the US until mid-August. I was lucky enough to find the job I wanted in a company that was willing to wait for me to start after my return this summer. I’ve been able to see so many incredible things, thanks to the inside resources I have in each country I’ve gone to so far. For example, in India I had several professors who are well-known in their country and who got us VIP entrances into temples where we were blessed by holy water and, in Slovakia, I had a friend whose wife’s aunt knows the wife to a long-lost cousin of mine who managed to answer age-old questions about my family history. What are the chances that such great things could happen? My summer is full of amazing things and I should be happy. But I’m not.
I’ve felt alarmingly depressed. Why? Well I can’t help thinking about home. No, I’m not homesick. I’m just stressed about the people at home, back in the States. I’m stressed about guys, about a guy who I thought was something special and who is now not replying to any message I send, about guys who don’t matter but whom I wonder about anyway, etc. Yada yada yada… all this stupid stuff that you would hear from a rambling teenager. Stupid just in its own essence, but here, comparing it to where I am and what should matter to me… it’s ESPECIALLY stupid.
And that’s why I decided to write a little quip about perspective. Although I might think a relationship or an individual is crucial to my life right now, the truth is it’s trivial. It’s especially trivial if someone doesn’t have the decency to acknowledge me. And maybe I’m nothing special, but I’m nothing ordinary either. So have fun missing out. The whole thing is even more trivial considering I’m in Europe, I’m traveling the world, I’m doing what so many people my age or older wish they were doing. I don’t need anyone’s sympathy or lack of attention. My problems might seem big on a local scale, but step back and it’s nothing compared to the world and everything there is to see and do in it.
I have guys asking to Skype me while I’m away, guys messaging me and reading my blogs to keep in touch as I travel, guys planning to meet me in various cities along my way. I have friends who have kept in touch for years and who have never changed. It’s people like these who matter, not the ones who flicker and fade. So, while I’m sitting here watching a movie that is set in his city, all I have to do is PITY that city for having him and his ignorance and PRAISE mine for showing me that the world is my oyster.
Don’t lose sight of what’s important; I’ll always preach that here.