This post hasn’t been well thought-out or anything. I’ve just been frustrated a lot lately and felt like ranting a bit. I don’t think I’m alone, especially with the winter season here now.
I officially moved into my new place in September. Around that time, I had a TON of unpacking to do and also a lot of planning. I had just decided I would be flying to Hong Kong in 2 months and I had $2,000 to raise. Needless to say, I was using my time to scramble. I had to finish painting so I could at least push my furniture against the wall, then I had to sort through boxes and unpack. And I’ve lived alone since 2011 so I have quite a lot of things to unpack.
Well, with the trip coming up, my fundraising prioritized slightly. I was going through my boxes of books and selling things online, setting up an Amazon account and having to deal with issues with my bank to make the thing work out alright. I went to a few events and raised funds there. Also, I was planning a trip to Orlando for National Conference (AISES) – and we’re not talking like it was last year when I flew to Denver and just did whatever. I was just a volunteer that year. No, this year I was a volunteer, a judge, a presenter, a chapter member, a student chaperone/assistant, and a networker. Plus, I drove. And so that also took money, which meant all September and October I was working overtime, then November I was traveling.
So my place is still at least 5 to 10% unpacked.
My kitchen cabinets are 70% finished and have sat like that since September.
And then I put things up and they come back down. Like my curtains. I took the time to hang them and my cats took the time to rip them back down again. Twice. Or the Christmas tree that was eaten twice before I finally established a “NO!!!” basis with the cats…but that still hasn’t managed to uncover my lost star tree-topper, or the cat collar that somehow vanished in the chasing process…
Oh, and the excellent caretakers….like the ones who drove the plow truck into my garden units and smashed my boards to pieces. Or the idiots who did a repair to my gutters (which still, by the way, don’t work) and so now my basement still floods and my back porch got smashed by a backhoe.
The people who came to replace a pipeline in my yard, tore up my grass and gardens, and made a mucky mess out of the sidewalk. Which is now solid ice because someone thought plowing it a little and letting the snow melt in the sun was a good idea. So I nearly wiped out 10 times last night.
The mailman who doesn’t mail my rent checks, so I find them 10 days later in my mailbox.
Well, at least I finally have heat. It doesn’t seem to work right, but my place is generally around 60 and I’ve stopped showering at LA Fitness because I actually have hot water now.
All of these little things going on and it’s so hard to come home from a 10-hour work day, walk into a semi-warm house, and say “I’m gonna clean this ALL UP right NOW!” It just doesn’t happen. I might sit down on the couch and suddenly find myself waking up, it’s 2am, and I haven’t eaten dinner. So what about my workout schedule? Well, that’s been pretty terrible, too. I used to run all the time and it felt good, but suddenly I was feeling like running was a burden. I don’t like running on the streets with cars passing or guys whistling or something stupid, so I’ve felt trapped. I’ll go to the gym at 5:30am, but with hockey most nights now I can’t possibly get home at 1am and expect to be working out in a few hours.
I’ve been lucky lately because I’ve forced myself to try a new thing: Nike Plus “Coach”. I went for a 3.6 mile run last Sunday while the weather was still decent. I realized I needed to get back into this running. 5Ks used to be so easy – even 10Ks. I want to run a full marathon someday and realize I had been close to running it when I did my last 1/2 marathon, so why slack off now? It’ll be harder to catch up later.
My Coach function allowed me to choose “Marathon” as my training goal. I’m not saying I’m gonna go through the whole thing and actually run that Marathon when it says I will, but I’m going to stick to it as much as I can for as long as I can. Partly, I want to do this because it will bring me through this cruddy months when I usually drop my mileage anyway. I hate treadmills, I hate running indoors unless I’m sprinting on a track. That’s just by the nature of the sports I did: Fall XC and Indoor/Outdoor Track. And I always trip on treadmills. It’s pretty uncoordinated and bad.
With my “Coach” telling me to get out and run, I have logged over 10 miles since Tuesday this week and am about to go to North Chagrin Reservation to log another 5. Yeah, it’s been icy and in the 20s, but the Coach just wants to see you try. It’s kind of nice to hear a voice say “Halfway there!’ and “Congratulations! You finished your goal!”, followed by a recording of an actual star athlete complimenting your work. And I’ve slowly come to realize that a 3 mile run is really only 20 minutes out of your day. I could kill 20 minutes just looking at my Tumblr feed and, while Tumblr tends to be my source of “news” considering I follow a very trendy, outspoken friend, it’s not at all as useful as spending that time accomplishing something.
My Coach says I can run a Marathon by May 31st on the plan, so maybe I’ll look into running one this summer. If nothing else, sticking to the plan through the winter is the first inkling of motivation I’ve had for a long time, and just in time too. These months are rough ones here in the Lake Effect Snow zone. But I love snow, so I won’t complain.