I really like things that are the least expected.
I’ve gotten accustomed to always expecting the least out of anyone. I figure if I don’t have any faith in them, I don’t have to worry about ever being disappointed. But what kind of life is it to have no faith in your friends? To never have any expectations? Admittedly, anticipation keeps me moving forward. Expectation must be a part of that anticipation.
But what about when the least expected isn’t a good expectation at all. Like when I am in the most exciting moments of my life and the people who I want to actively partake just trudge on with their ordinary lives and think they’re making up for it by occasionally asking me how I am. Like when I’m at Nationals for hockey and you don’t need to text me because there is online streaming, results, and a half dozen free apps that could keep you updated without asking. And asking just proves to me that you’re not paying a damn bit of attention to something that’s important to me.
Yet what I didn’t expect was the numerous people who have texted me, messaged me, whatever-ed me and proved to me that they are up to date, that they are paying attention. People who are so far away, too! There is no one in my office at work who is paying much attention to my tournament, the people who see me the most and – in some cases – are the closest to me, yet I’m getting text messages from Colorado, SnapChats from Hawai’i, messages from Germany,… so many other people going out of their way to care about me.
I didn’t expect that. And I know that part of being a long distant friend is taking a little extra effort to maintain that friendship, but when someone is close and takes advantage of that…thinking that means they don’t need to try as much, even if it’s subconscious,…well, forget that. Just FORGET that. You don’t mean anything. Not in the long run. And that’s the only run that matters.